What is it I (me, myself) plan to do with MY one...

It's a question I've been pondering lately.  Even more so with my invitation to be included in Influence Conference as a community leader.  What is it that I actually plan to do with MY ONE wild and PRECIOUS life?  Just one.  Just me.  I can't plan for anyone else, but me - myself... thats a whole different ball game.  I believe the Lord holds my plans in His hands and though I can't begin to discern the depths of them, I know His plan is not for me to sit idle and His plan for me is not to stare at my own belly button.  I have this one (I'll say it again..) wild and precious life, what is it I plan to do with it?

I've got so many things on my heart -- not all are necessarily clear desires or things I know will (or I even realllly want to) happen, but ideas of what my influence is and/or can be.  Some are concrete and real now, some need room to grow, some are pipe dreams, some I'm horrible at, some are what ifs... Here's a laundry list: 

influence conference 

writing an ebook

writing a book

lead a youth bible study

blogging for a nonprofit to help raise awareness for a cause i believe in

adoption

living abroad / missions

loving my neighbors well

being intentional about building community

be an advocate / spokesperson for something I believe in

show hospitality in word and deed

loving my spouse well

continued education

raising my child(ren) in the nurture and admonition of the Lord

be transparent with my beliefs

be teachable and trainable

pursue relationships

have compassionate boldness
have bold compassion

Some of the things on that list feel really personal and I haven't even begun to scratch the surface of what it might mean for my life.  Like adoption -- I can't begin to fathom it, but almost can't talk about it without crying.  Or an ebook -- what would I write about and who says I've got what it takes?  And some of the list, like loving my neighbors well, I don't even want to "do business with," because I know it means sacrifice and could be, for lack of a better word, messy.  

aaahhh..  well there's a piece of my heart right there for ya.

Here I am Lord.

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related post: 

Why I named my blog Wild and Precious

Public Service Announcement:  

If you haven't heard the buzz about Influence Conference head over to theinfluenceconfernece.com to see what its all about.  In a nutshell: "If you’ve ever wondered how or why the Lord was going to use you in your home, work, community, or online – Influence is a fantastic place to connect and learn. We believe that God has given you influence right where you are, for one purpose: to make much of Him. At Influence we’re going to dig into the common thread of all of us – the Good News. We plan on doing a little teaching, talking, sharing, and celebrating concerning the ways He might want to use you on the individual platforms He’s given." {this Oct. in Indianapolis}


Public Service Announement number two:
looking or an easy peasy way to stay in the word -- join kacia+robot & gussy sews (and a slew of other online ladies... me too) in #shereadstruth.  download the YouVersion Bible on your smart phone and then hop into the "Soul Detox" plan.  I'm on day 8 - Proverbs 12 and loving these verses in light of today's post > 12:11 Whoever works his land will have plenty of bread, but he who follows worthless pursuits lacks sense. & 12:15 The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice.